The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

One thing that bothers me about blogs is the fact that they make everyone's life seems picturesque and perfect. No one ever writes about the hard times and the parts that just downright suck. There is reason for this: No one wants to remember the bad parts or broadcast it to the world. I however, want to take a moment to be real with life. Life is good for the most part but lets face it, divorce is not a pretty picture. It  is a part of my life and my blog is about my life, so here goes... If I haven't scared you off yet, keep reading. There are good parts to this post as well (hence the title)!

 We picked up the boys' dad from Vegas last night and Braden was beyond excited to see his daddy. Seeing him run up to his dad and leap into his arms after not seeing him for over 3 months was almost enough to bring tears to my eyes... almost. Here's the ugly part: I held back although emotions are high because tomorrow we have to sit down with my precious Braden and explain to him that daddy and mommy are getting a divorce and that is why daddy is not living with us anymore.  

We briefly talked with him before we left California but it didn't click. How do I know? Well, after hearing him tell someone that daddy was coming and we were going to be together forever managed to clue me in on the inner-workings of Braden's mind. This is something I swore to myself would never happen. No mother should have to tell their child that their parents aren't married anymore. It makes me sick every time I think about it. I feel like I'm letting him down in the biggest possible way but at the same time I know that I'm giving him the best life I can and quite frankly, it is out of my hands. This road is mine to travel so I'm going to walk it the best I know how. I realize that Travis is going to be affected by this also but not nearly as much as his brother. It will just be the way life is for him and he won't know any different. 

Okay, so this post is not meant to depress anyone! Welcome to my life. There is the good, the bad and the ugly. Most of the time I like to deal with the first but sometimes the last two sneak in there when I'm not looking and ruin the party. So, back to the good... We had a fun time in Vegas last night. We checked out the lions at the  MGM and then headed to the M&M factory and checked out their 3-D movie. Braden had fun and Travis was in a good mood; smiling and laughing and screeching (his good screech). It seemed as if he remembered his dad even though it's been so long for such a youngster. 

While walking back on the strip, we ran into... 

So, I had to get a picture. This one's for you, Sheyene! M.J. lives! (Sheyene thinks this should be the "Ugly" part of my post because M.J. looks dead...)

On a side note: Braden had a speaking part in the primary program at church today. He did amazing! His part was, "I lived with Heavenly Father before I came to Earth." He was so cute up there singing the songs. Before church, I asked if he was excited and he whispered in my ear, "What if I get stage fright?" He's just too dang cute. I just want to squeeze him tight and never let go! I love the way he thinks. I think the best part for Braden was having his daddy there to watch him. I'm grateful that he went for Braden's sake.